Confessions of a broken heart :

They say that life is a journey. True enough we find ourselves more than often traveling, though not in the real sense of the word. Our mind , our thoughts , our feelings travel.

During this journey we learn to smile, to trust, to care, to love, to forgive, to hope , to laugh ,to cry , to dream , to help , to dance , to rejoice. Collectively when we put all these beads together it forms a beautiful necklace called life. One moment you are lonely not knowing where to go and why. And suddenly out of the unexpected you meet your soul mate. Off course you cannot not identify him as your soul mate at that moment. There is no name plate or an identification mark on the person to help you guide towards him. This is a gradual process and slowly with time as you get to know each other you experience a beautiful transformation within yourself. Things which you never liked or even hated earlier you suddenly start liking them just because that special person likes it. Things which you never dreamt to do in your life you start doing them just for a smile from the special person. Your thoughts and actions start revolving around him. Your dreams get possessed by him. He starts meaning the world to you and you go out of your way to do anything for him. Beyond your imagination, beyond your reach, just anything.

And one fine day you meet with reality. The truth gets revealed to you and yet you refuse to accept it. So blind is your faith and love for him that you still hope and wish that this is all a mistake. You cry , you forgive, you forget but yet the truth prevails. You are shocked and left wondering why me? where did I go wrong? What was my mistake but the reality strikes you hard. Lies , deceptions, selfishness harass you. All your sacrifices seem futile. There is no justification given as there is nobody to reply to you. Dreams are shattered and you begin to wonder was that love? You know the answer but do not want to face it. You are ashamed that you choose the wrong person, you loved the wrong person who did not value you, your feelings or even your love. You feel worthless and lost. You no longer believe in love.

The journey ahead seems long , tiring and never ending. And where would this journey lead to?